CHAPTER 3 Love Ending

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they’ll love you back.

Some people are just not meant to be in your life, no matter how much you want them to be.

You hug him good-bye like it’s nothing while all you want to do is hold on forever.

I used to smile when I told people that you were mine.

But now, I can’t even smile and say your name at the same time.

As much as I love you, I have to say goodbye coz I know you would be happier if I let you go.

I’m sorry if I made you cry. I’m sorry if tears fell from your eyes.

But remember, for every tear that fell from your eyes, two fell from mine.

Missing you isn’t the hardest part, knowing once I had you, is what breaks my heart.

I’ll never forget the times we once shared, and I’ll always remember how much you once cared.

Now it’s over, it’s time to move on.

It’s never easy to see you turning back but I have to take the pain.

And cry all way home coz I know it will never be the same.

I know when you leave, distance will keep us apart.

But distance, no matter how far, can’t change these feelings in my heart.

Just turn your head when you see me, I will understand.

One day, I will be able to look you in the eye without feeling the pain I’ve caused you.

I hope in time, you will be happy as you call my name once again.

Happiness is too far for us now. But even if it’s near, I know it will be hard for us to get there.

Baby, it’s never gonna work out.

I Love You. Goodbye.

CHAPTER 2 Love Really Hurts

I only have two words for you. I’m done.

After everything I’ve done for you. Every chance that I gave you and yet you still break my heart but it’s over.

Finally, I’ve realized I don’t deserve this and honestly you don’t deserve me.

Yeah! I still love you and I probably will for a long time but I can’t stay here anymore.

It hurts too much. I guess this is moving on.

I guess I’m tired of being the last thing on your mind.

I should have known from the start you’d go and break my heart.

You took my love and threw it away as if it were nothing.

To me, you’re everything but to you, I’m just another meantime lover.

You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel?

I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?

I know you were just another dead end road made with pretty lies and broken dreams.

Now I believe it when people say love is blind because I must have been blind to love a person like you.

It finally hit me that you didn’t care when you walked away and never looked back.

Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me, everything would be different and my heart wouldn’t be breaking right now.

I want to do exactly what you did to me. Lead you on. Make you fall for me then just let you go effortlessly.

Suddenly, I hate myself for everything I’ve ever felt for you.

Sometimes, I wish I could go back and erase the day I met you but then, I will never regret loving you only believing you love me too.

I made a mistake, thinking you were my world. You won’t get away with this. You messed with the wrong person.

Slandering my name just for your own gain. Dream on honey, I’m going to make you feel my pain.

Thank you for ripping my heart out, stomping on it and breaking it in half. Now, I know how much you care.

Watching you walking out of my life doesn’t make me bitter about love, but rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how great it will be when the right one comes along.

There is no medication for this illness. No known cure other than time.

Maybe someday I’ll get back my heart. Maybe someday I’ll get back my pride.

Maybe somewhere down the road, I’ll forget to remember you.

One day, you will seek love and be sorry that you threw mine away.

And one day, you’ll realize you could have been with me.

I hope someday you’ll realize what a fool you were to let someone like me slip from your grip.

And you’ll see that the one you’ve been looking for was the one who set you free.

One day, I will be able to look you in the eyes without feeling the pain you’ve caused.

One day, I will be able to stand next to you without wanting to hold your hand.

One day, I’ll get over you.

CHAPTER 1 Status: Single

Kasabay ng napakalamig na panahon sa pagpasok ng taong 2011 ay ganoon din kalamig sa aking personal na pag-ibig. Sa dalawang beses na nagpakatanga ako ng tunay pero hindi naging happy ending ay masasabi kong isang pelikula na kung saan ang bida nasaktan at muling bumangon. Ang pagmamahal sa iyong nagugustuhan ang isa sa pinakamahirap at pinakamasayang parte sa buhay ng tao pero bago ka dumaan sa mga iyon hindi ba single ka muna?

Napag-isip isip ko na sa panahon ngayon, napakadami na ang single sa mundo? Itinatanong ko minsan sa isip ko, ano kaya ang dahilan? career? ayaw lang? pihikan? takot? or talagang walang dumarating?

Ang hirap pumasok sa isang relasyon lalo na kung hindi pa dapat at hindi ka pa handa dahil kapag nakapasok ka na, oras at panahon mo mahahati. Iyong mga karamihan na nagagawa mo habang single ka pa, halos hindi mo na nagagawa. Chill ka lang muna. Relax. Darating din tayo doon.

Siguro, nasasabi ko lahat ito dahil hindi naging maganda ang resulta noong una kong naging ka-relasyon noong September 2008 na tumagal lang ng 30 days na hindi man lang alam ng Dad, Mom, at Brother ko at hanggang ngayon hindi pa siya nasusundan pero wala akong naramdaman na kahit anong pagmamahal sa kanya.

Iyong tipong iniisip ko siya at nagaalala ako sa kanya, hindi ko naramdaman iyon marahil kaya ako pumasok dahil gusto ko lang masabi sa ibang tao na meron ako.

Kung naging totoo lang si Doraemon, kukuha ako ng gamit sa bulsa niya ng time machine na pwede akong bumalik sa nakaraan at itama lahat ng pagkakamali.

Ngayong 2011, masaya ako kahit walang kasama sa kama este sa ngayon na karelasyon dahil wala akong iniimagine tuwing gabi. Wala akong nilalagyan ng plastic bag sa ulo at kapag hindi na nakahinga, tatanggalin ko at sasabihing “I love you”. Sweet hindi ba?

Hintayin na lang natin humupa itong sawi’t nanlalamig na mga puso natin sa darating na araw ng mga puso at gawin nalang nating ordinaryong araw habang nakakakita sa ating mga paligid ng mga nagchuchuk-chak na mag-jowa.

Hindi ako naniniwala halos sa kasabihang, “True Love Waits” dahil kung naghihintay ka, paano kung hindi dumating kahit “Patience is a Virtue” ka pa? I just want to share my principle in love, “Don’t wait for it, look for it and when you find it, work on it." Sana, ngayong darating na araw ng mga puso sa ating mga bulok na gulay, maibsan ang inyong tigang na nararamdaman ng kasiyahan ngayong malamig na simoy ng hangin. Ano ginagawa ng internet? Spread the love and lust. Sa pagtatapos ng iyong pagbabasa, may itatanong ako sa iyo, STATUS: SINGLE ka pa rin ba?